Here right now...

Continuing with my Ghost the Musical theme, here is a wonderful quote...

"Here right now, here right now

This is what we’re living for

This is when we give into the moment and let go

Here right now

Everything were dreaming of

Is coming through, if we step up and own it, let it go

Here right now, here right now"

The musical, which I watched again tonight, carries a great message of living in the moment and reaffirmed my thoughts of the day.  All day I've been thinking about excitement, I've been excited, and I've  watched others get excited.  This summer has taught me a lot about excitement.  It is such a personal emotion, such a unique feeling, and such a wonderful feeling.  Today I watched others get annoyed by excitement, I got annoyed by excitement, and I decided that we were all wrong for being annoyed.  Getting excited in one of my favorite things.  I don't mean to do it, I don't plan on doing it, but I fall into the trap and do it all the time.   Whether it be the new bagels in the cafeteria, the bagel man recognizing me on the corner, being able to give my New Yorker intern friends directions on how to get somewhere in the city, or swinging my first golf club... I LOVE to get excited. My dad calls it flapping my wings, others call it whaling my arms, but either way I look like I'm about to take off because I start moving my arms as if I were trying to fly off. 

Today, while on the intern golf outing to Brooklyn, I caught myself getting annoyed by some of the intern's excitement over the teammates or the act of being out on a golf course with 100 degree weather... But after a few minutes I realized how ridiculous I was being.  For a month and a half 13 interns have sat through hours of mini Martina freak outs over every show I watched, each celebrity I crossed, each museum I explored, each restaurant I tried, and each adventure I embarked on.  They heard my Letterman stories about a million times, heard all the details about my assigned Partner in the company (since I'm sightly obsessed and think he is an incredible role model), and continue to put up with the millions of tiny stories and details I share on a daily basis.  They laugh, they mock, but rarely do they put me down or take my excitement away. They are supportive and even join in! 

At the same time, I have the most wonderful travel buddy with me! Adam! He is amazing!! He puts up with all the wing flapping, joins in on the excitement, and even gets me exited about little things I would have missed if he wasn't here!  

Getting excited has been the key to this summer! Whether it is on a project, wondering the city, or watching a show,  something inside me makes me excited! Whether it is my nature or the energy of the city, I'm not sure.  I know that this excitement is also the reason I sometimes bite off more than I can chew, but I am ok with that.  As long as I keep getting excited, I think I will be ok.  But at the same time, New York has made me realize that I need to be aware that while I'm living in the moment, I don't get in the way of someone else's excitement.

There's nothing that brings my excitement down more than someone acting like what I'm freaking about is not important or dumb. I caught myself doing that today, and I hated myself for it.  So since you guys put up with my ridiculous constant excitements for all things, I am making the promise to try to always support and join in on excitement as opposed to judging or getting annoyed.  Thank you New York for the lesson! 

Now I get to share some of today's Martina excitement freak outs:

- I, Martina, GOLFED! It was a sight to see, but very fun!

- I led a lot of the New York interns today! Mind you, I am from Mississippi and they all look at me for directions! Ha! 

- I got to drink and icy diet coke in the middle of our walk back to the subway in Brooklyn. 

- I won the Ghost lottery and got to see Ghost again, from the front row.

- Ghost the Musical brought me to tears, AGAIN!

- I got all the cast's signatures, and they were incredibly sweet and humble!

- I got a picture with Richard Fleeshman, one of the most amazing voices I've heard in a long time... Wish the picture could sing.

- I heard from my two best friends today! 

-  I got tickets to watch Phantom of the Opera next week. 

- I made a friend outside of Ghost, who is studying theater...

- I got asked at the Pizza place if I was in an acting workshop, bahahahaha, I wish.

- my list could go on for days, but for now, I'm excited that I get to go to bed!!! Goodnight!